I can’t wait till I have “made it”. I mean, I’m too eager to reach my end goal, which is a successful, black, educated woman doing uber exciting things in her life for God. And although I am currently taking care of the “educated” part of my goal, I can’t help but feel that I am wasting time. My current state doesn’t seem too exciting and I fear that my lack of enthusiasm in my current state is an indication of the rest of my life. Will I end up doing something that I have no passion for, for the rest of my life? Will I ever find the time to truly find my true calling and get to a point of total fulfillment in my life? These are the questions that haunt me on an hourly basis.
Yet again, I have this underlying confidence. It’s a mustard-seed sized faith reminding me that where I am right now, is temporary.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
God cannot NOT lead/guide me. I may not jump up and down with exuberant enthusiasm doing the work I am doing right now, but where I am at the moment, is part of a greater plan for me; I may be unaware of the bigger picture right this hour, but I just have to trust he will unveil it when the time comes.
But man, I’m not going to lie; this waiting game is serious…