“If I’m not jumping up and down in service with my hands lifted, and I’m not feeling the ‘feels’ of church, do I lack faith?”
What is faith anyway?
Google dictionary says that faith is “complete trust or confidence in someone or something”
Hebrews 11:1 states that faith “is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.”
Hmm, similar definitions. Well, what is confidence? Certainty. Conviction. Firm Trust [Again, Google dictionary]
Looks to me that the presence of faith is less about a physical display and more about a gut-feeling.
This is how I see it:
When I enter my car, turn on the ignition and no red-lights, sirens, and warning labels are blaring back at me, and I have a reasonably filled tank, I breathe a sigh of relief and instantly, I am at ease. Why? Because I know that I will be able to make my 2-mile ride to Walmart that day. Now, there have been days where I do my happy dance when my car passes my ‘pre-drive checklist’. Nothing major. A little shimmy to the left, and a boogie to the right, and I’m off on my way. But just because I sometimes don’t outwardly express the firm conviction that my car will not be breaking down as soon as I switch my gear to drive, doesn’t mean the conviction (the certainty that I will reach my destination) is not there. Maybe I really needed to get the curry pepper that I had just ran out of and was too hungry to do anything else but quickly go to the convenience store and get back home to my Indian Curry Chicken dinner.
I like to think that the “feels” of church (the lifting of hands during worship, the jumping up & down during praise, the yelling back at the pastor in approval during the sermon, etc) are like my happy dance. It’s a physical expression led by faith, and not the faith itself. The fact that I know that my God is working behind the scenes for my good, is faith. The belief that He is not one to leave me nor forsake me, is faith. The conviction that my God will supply all my needs, according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus? Now that’s what I call faith. I may not “see” it, in the physical, but that doesn’t mean that it isn’t already accomplished in the spirit; it’s just a matter of time before it manifests in the physical. My happy dance is an expression of my gratitude of what is to come.